Introspection

Earlier this afternoon I walked over to our local library, a tiny little thing located in our wee town hall. Swansea, the area of Toronto where we live, is the only community within TO to still have its own town hall and a sort of local government. I’m not really sure why, but it adds to the homey feeling of this area.

Anyway, today is a rather chilly spring day, but still quite nice. I took my time walking over because the library didn’t open until 1pm and I was a little ahead of schedule. My walk was so nice, because there were still many spring flowers to enjoy. I love seeing the bright yellow of daffodils and the shocking red of tulips, and especially the few remaining blushing pink and royal purple hydrangeas. I also find the variety of bird song amazing! I guess it is partly due to the fact that we are near such a large park. Where I grew up, there were only a few different varieties of birds around, just your typical city dwellers like robins, seagulls, etc. Here there are geese, ducks, swans, and many different birds I have only heard but not yet seen. I like the fact that I am not taking time to really listen to and see what is around me. It is amazing how much of a difference it makes.

On my walk home, some how I got to thinking about what I would like to accomplish by the time I am fifty. I’m not sure where that number came from, but I am getting a little more introspective because my birthday is coming up. I am moving firmly into my late twenties and I am questioning what I have accomplished. So, the list I came up with for what I’d like to do looks like this so far:

  • raise a happy and well adjusted child (Hey, my mom managed to do it, sorta, so I guess I can to!)
  • plant a tree and see it grow
  • go back to university (I would do this at 50, or whatever age it is that tuition becomes free. Many universities here do offer free tuition to “older” students.)
  • write my book (I really don’t care if it ever published though.)
  • finally be comfortable in my own skin (I hope it doesn’t take me until 50 to do this.)
  • stop being a “people pleaser”

Looks like I’ve got my work cut out for me. 🙂 But, you know, I’m looking forward to it. Especially learning to occasionally put myself first.

This entry was posted in My Life. Bookmark the permalink.

Comments are closed.