The trip to my doctor went a little better then I expected. My heart rate is great (which is surprising), and my lungs sound clear (which is wonderful). My weight has gone up quite a bit in the last two years, but that isn’t surprising. As for my most recent problem, I told him all the facts and he told me what was wrong, simply and clearly. I know I won’t be better tomorrow, or next week, but at least I am now on my way to fixing the problem.
I feel very relieved. For the past couple of years I’ve been trying to pretend that nothing is wrong. This, of course, has lead to the occasional angry outburst, which is only to be expected. It is difficult to constantly pretend that life is good when inside you are barely keeping it together. Now I don’t have to act like I’m okay. Although, I will admit to feeling bad about feeling bad. My life is pretty good, and hopefully I will be able to enjoy it sooner rather than later.
Things for Sil to do to feel better:
– take her meds (yay! :P)
– do things to please herself, rather than trying to please everyone else
– find another job (even retail will be fine)
– spend time on her spirituality
– hug quanta and Isis every day
– finally eBay all that cross stitch stuff (oh… wait, that’s another To Do list)
Well, dear Readers, I am hopefully on the road to recovery. It will take a will for me to get there, but at least I’ve finally taken the first step. I was going to say that I feel both sad and happy today, but that makes me either sappy or had. 😉