I’ve been thinking a little bit more about this whole physiotherapy and healing experience I am currently going through. I am actually quite afraid of the whole thing. I have been this damaged person for so long that the physical pain has helped to shape my personality. I wonder how my personality will change when the pain begins to go away. Will I become more pleasant and open?
I am also afraid of the expectations that will be placed on me by others as I get better. Right now, I do so much and work so hard, but I am limited by my pain. As the pain goes away, will everyone expect me to work even harder and do even more? What if I am not capable of meeting these new expectations?
All in all, though, I am still very excited about the whole process. I am learning to pay attention to my body and to work with it in better ways.