Past and Future

I sometimes think that I live too much in the future and the past. I ruminate on past events, replaying them in my mind in an effort of figure out what I could have done differently. And I am forever thinking about future events. (If I could know the sex of my child, who won’t even be concieved for at least a year, I would already be collecting toys and clothes.)

There is a quote from Charles Dickens that I see everyday at work: Live in the past, the present & the future! I am managing two out of three, but that isn’t enough.

I feel like I am waiting for my life to begin. But last night, laying in bed, I realized that while I am waiting for it to begin, I am actually missing my life while it is happening. Imagine that.

So what does this mean? I don’t know yet. Gosh, could I be any more depressing? lol!