Growing Pains Revisited

I have recently heard from a few old high school friends. (I promise I will respond soon, guys!) When I received the first email, my immediate reaction was “How the heck did they find my blog?!” It’s not that I’m hiding it, but I know it is obscure. Obviously it is easier to find then I thought.

These emails also got me thinking about my high school years. For the first couple of years I had two wonderful friends. I was closer to the one then the other, but we all got along really well. Then I was set up with a guy. He wasn’t my first boyfriend, nor, thankfully, would he be my last. But at the time he became my world. Friendships fell apart, I lost myself in him, and the last few years of high school were full of drama and tears.

A few years later we split up, but by then the damage had long been done. It took me some time, and a lot of help, to recover my self and my own personality. I recovered my spirituality and I found a man I love dearly and who treats me wonderfully. (What a refreshing change!)

Overall, I would say that I have no regrets about my high school years. They may have been difficult and often cruel, but they lead to the life I have now. I am still shy and very wary of trusting others, but I am the strongest I have ever been. I am also much more secure in myself and in my spiritual path. Sometime I wish I had done things a little differently and kept in touch with people instead of all but disappearing after high school. But, looking back, I’m not sure the changes would be worth it if it meant I had to give up everything I have now and all the lessons I have learned.

So, to bring this full circle, I am actually very glad to hear from these old friends again. It has given me a chance to reflect on how I’ve grown, and also a chance to renew and repair old friendships. But I’d still like to know how you guys found me!