Yesterday was not a good day. The Wendy’s Restaurant next door had a small fire, caused by a leak from the Second Cup above it. This caused our small mall area to close down. We were told by security to leave the store, but our jerk of an owner didn’t think we needed to. By the time we finally convinced him that we were leaving and he could stay if he wanted the alarm had been turned off. *sigh*

Thankfully, the rest of the day at work went fairly smoothly. But, my bus was over 30 minutes late, and I was very cold standing outside waiting for it. The problem is that work is still very, very warm, so I am dressing in light clothes and sandals so that I will be comfortable there. Normally I am outside for such a short time that I don’t get too cold waiting for the bus. Last night, I nearly lost feeling in my toes.

I had high hopes for today. I’ve got the day off and only a few things to do. So, I had planned on reformatting my notebook computer in an attempt to get it cleaned up and get my DivX codec working again. I just finished backing up everything important, and now when I try to reboot it just sits there… dead. I guess I can look on the bright side, since everything did get backed up. I just wish I knew why it has stopped working. *sigh*

Oh well, it’s not the end of the world. Now my afternoon is free for a nap, instead of spending the time reinstalling software. 🙁

– What if your talents don’t match with what you want to do?

– What if more money isn’t the answer?

– Is it really possible to make a comfortable living doing what you want?

These are some pretty heavy questions, but they are what I’ve been thinking about. Sometimes I’m a little frustrated that I’m not as successful as I would like. But, you know, I’m happy. I think that being happy and comfortable may be a little more important then making lots of money.

I’ve figured out something pretty big — I’m all about instant gratification. If I want something (within reason), I buy it right away. I also have trouble signing on to something for the long haul — like weight loss or the BOTA course. There is always an excuse at hand to explain why, though, and it never has anything to do with my impatience to see results. 😉

So what I am going to do about this? Well, obviously, I want to seem some sort of result soon, and that’s the rub. The only project I seem to be able to stick with for long is my cross stitch. What is the difference between that and the other projects I abandon? Well, I see very obvious ongoing results; I get a physical object when I’m done; I can do it while watching TV; and it is a hobby, so there is no real pressure.

Maybe that’s the key! If there is any sort of pressure, real or imagined, I give up. How very sad.

I’ve recently learned how easy it is to lose touch with one’s body. For quite some time I’ve been very aware that I was out of shape. I had never really felt fat though, even after my doctor suggested I lose some weight. But, after seeing my wedding pictures, I have realised how wrong I was.

I think my weight snuck up on me over the years. I gained some weight at the beginning of university and a few pounds near the end. And, of course, I gained some more after I moved out of my parent’s home. It also doesn’t help that at most of my jobs I’ve ate fast food for lunch. Even still, it really was a shock to see so many pictures of me looking so heavy.

I can’t say for sure yet if I have been given enough incentive to lose some weight. It is easy enough to ignore a few bad pictures. But thinking of all the other things I want to do — have a baby, feel healthy, and feel comfortable with my body — I know they will be easier to accomplish it I am at a healthier weight.