I’ve figured out something pretty big — I’m all about instant gratification. If I want something (within reason), I buy it right away. I also have trouble signing on to something for the long haul — like weight loss or the BOTA course. There is always an excuse at hand to explain why, though, and it never has anything to do with my impatience to see results. 😉

So what I am going to do about this? Well, obviously, I want to seem some sort of result soon, and that’s the rub. The only project I seem to be able to stick with for long is my cross stitch. What is the difference between that and the other projects I abandon? Well, I see very obvious ongoing results; I get a physical object when I’m done; I can do it while watching TV; and it is a hobby, so there is no real pressure.

Maybe that’s the key! If there is any sort of pressure, real or imagined, I give up. How very sad.

I’ve recently learned how easy it is to lose touch with one’s body. For quite some time I’ve been very aware that I was out of shape. I had never really felt fat though, even after my doctor suggested I lose some weight. But, after seeing my wedding pictures, I have realised how wrong I was.

I think my weight snuck up on me over the years. I gained some weight at the beginning of university and a few pounds near the end. And, of course, I gained some more after I moved out of my parent’s home. It also doesn’t help that at most of my jobs I’ve ate fast food for lunch. Even still, it really was a shock to see so many pictures of me looking so heavy.

I can’t say for sure yet if I have been given enough incentive to lose some weight. It is easy enough to ignore a few bad pictures. But thinking of all the other things I want to do — have a baby, feel healthy, and feel comfortable with my body — I know they will be easier to accomplish it I am at a healthier weight.