I am amazed that it is already the last day of June. The way the weather has been lately, I would believe that we are nearing the end of July instead. I would love to go get some ice cream today, but with the humidity the temperature is 38

I sometimes think that I live too much in the future and the past. I ruminate on past events, replaying them in my mind in an effort of figure out what I could have done differently. And I am forever thinking about future events. (If I could know the sex of my child, who won’t even be concieved for at least a year, I would already be collecting toys and clothes.)

There is a quote from Charles Dickens that I see everyday at work: Live in the past, the present & the future! I am managing two out of three, but that isn’t enough.

I feel like I am waiting for my life to begin. But last night, laying in bed, I realized that while I am waiting for it to begin, I am actually missing my life while it is happening. Imagine that.

So what does this mean? I don’t know yet. Gosh, could I be any more depressing? lol!

I disappeared for much longer then I intended too. Last week I went to Hamilton to visit my parents and to find a tiara to wear with my wedding dress. I has a wonderful weekend, spending too much money on clothes that aren’t practical for work but that make me feel cute and wonderful. 🙂

This week has been very stressful, with the situation at work not improving any. I think the best thing I can say is that things haven’t gotten worse… yet. Ever the optimist, aren’t I? I talked to the owner today and managed to get some time off in July. I also let her know that it is nearly 100% that I will be leaving September 2nd. I feel a little better having finally made that decision, but I am also worried about what the future brings. Regardless, I know that I wouldn’t have been able to handle another Christmas there. And I feel a little justified about leaving since my doctor has insisted that I need to seriously reduce the stress in my life and take care of myself better.

quanta and I have also learned that our flight times to Mexico has changed. That means that as it stands now, we will be getting married the day before we leave. We are leaving at about 7pm in the evening, but we think we will be changing our wedding date so we have more time after our wedding. It seems a little silly, I guess, but it also seems right.

Anyway, I hope to be back to regular posting. After being away all weekend, I had so much to catch up on the past couple of nights. But I finally cleared everything up tonight, except some hand washing, leaving me time to write again.

So, I’m back from my most recent doctor’s appointment. Early last week I had my stomach investigated, and today the doctor told me they found nothing wrong. Nothing! Tell that to my stomach that so often hurts. The only way to relieve the pain is to eat. She is as confused as me, because I have the symptoms of an ulcer, but there is none to be found. Very frustrating.

On the lighter side, she has ordered me to relax. 😉 Long baths, walks in the park, etc. Enjoy life, she says. Excellent advice, aimed at soothing my stomach and my non-ulcer.

So, the plan for the weekend. Today: a nap, maybe a load or two of laundry, some TV (I love Most Haunted), and some cross stitch, and, if I’m lucky, some journaling. Tomorrow: shoe and clothes shopping at a crowed mall in the morning (stress!!!), and a walk in the park in the late afternoon or early evening, and cross stitching with some TV. Sunday: Laundry and napping. 😉 Relaxing enough? Maybe, but the coming week at work will be the true test.