The Great Canadian Novel

I do some of my best writing, blog entries or otherwise, either while walking or falling asleep. Unfortunately, by the time I wake up or get in front of the computer, the ideas are long gone. Somewhere in the back of my brain there is a huge closet full of pithy insights and clever essays. It would be nice if I could recover them one day, but I’m not counting on it.

I’ve come to realize, more and more, that writing is what I want to do. I would love to see my name (maybe my real name, or maybe my pseudonym, as they both are me now) on the cover of a book. And as funny as it seems, I would love to have my own ISBN. How neat! But first I’ve got to write a book. If you’ve reading my writing blog, Lotus Petals, you will know that I have decided to take the plunge and actually start writing. I’ve spent too many years dreaming, and now it is time to finally pick up that damn pen.

I’ve decided to try non-fiction first, as my attempts at story writing seem to fall flat. I’ve picked a subject. Heck, I’ve even picked a title. There is a lot of research to be done, as well as some rules of grammar to be reviewed. (Like avoiding the passive voice! 😮 ) But, for the first time in ages, I feel excited about writing. And if my book is never published, it doesn’t matter. Finishing it will be good enough for me.

So, add me to the list of the millions of people who say they are writing a book. I know I’m not alone in having this dream. Hopefully I can make it come true.

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Lulu

Ever get the feeling the universe is trying to tell you something? Just yesterday I decided it was about damn time I got to work on writing my book. This morning, quanta sends me a link to Lulu, and online on-demand publisher. It’s not quite a vanity press and not quite self-publishing, but rather an interesting mix of the two. This could be a good venue for me to explore, because it sure would be nice to have a real book written by me on my bookshelf.

It is time to step up to the plate (or any other silly cliche you like that has been made popular by reality TV), and start working on that book. I’ve got quite a bit of research to do first, but I think I will be more motivated now that I have a goal in mind.

What’s the old saying? When the student is ready the teacher will appear.

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Walking the Walk

Well… this blog hasn’t seen much action yet, has it?

I’m currently devouring Stephen King’s On Writing. And, although I am not a big fan of Mr. King’s novels, I am absolutely loving this book. He has a way with words and an ability to tell a story that I envy.

I love words, but I am also more then a little afraid of them. I have never been able to spell particularly well, and this has lead me to be quiet timid when it comes to expressing myself. Using word processing software has really helped me feel more free. (All my blog entries are written in UltraEdit and spell checked before being posted.) But, deep down, there is still that young girl who so wanted to write a story, but wasn’t able to spell well enough to do it. If, when I was writing, I came across a word I couldn’t spell, I would use a different word (or words) that I could, and change the sentence to fit. I’ve never really gotten over this, and my writing is stunted because of this.

But, even with my difficulty spelling, I was always a voracious reading. I don’t just read books, I devour them. I am always reading at least two books, with several more waiting in the wings. There is more then a little jealousy involved, I think. Maybe, I think, if I read enough I will finally get up the nerve to write my own book.

The time is finally coming to walk the walk, even if I am the only one who will read it.

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The Package Arrives!

*yawn* So far it has been a good birthday morning. After totally giving up on receiving my altar items yesterday, this morning I was rudely awaken by the door buzzer. The friendly postman had my package! I am totally thrilled by the items. They are much prettier then I expected them to be, and they were well worth the wait.

Yesterday afternoon I was pretty bummed about my practice, but this has got me excited again. Yes, I know we don’t need tools and do-dads to practice, but when you have spent the last decade not using them, actually having a couple is pretty neat. 🙂

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Unconscious Mutterings

There is a bigger entry coming later today, promise! Yesterday I was busy finishing up a yearlong project. I will be posting a picture of it sometime this afternoon.

Until then, here is this week’s Unconscious Mutterings.

  1. Vagina:: Woman
  2. Racism:: Evil
  3. Mother’s Day:: Birthday
  4. Fire alarm:: LOUD
  5. Elvis:: King
  6. Pregnant:: Baby
  7. Vacation:: Rest
  8. Waffles:: Yum!
  9. Perpendicular:: Orthogonal
  10. Hospital:: Grandpa

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CSIS Warnings

This morning Canadian news channels are reporting that CSIS (Canada’s version of the FBI, sorta) says a terrorist attack in Canada is inevitable–CBC News: CSIS warns al-Qaeda may target Canada. Quite frankly, this terrifies me. I’m now wishing that we hadn’t moved to Toronto, because it is a likely target.

I hate all this terrorism stuff. I don’t understand why people think they have the right to take other people’s lives, especially in the name of religion. I do know the theories and whatnot, but I don’t understand it, deep down. What is the point of arguing about something that we can not know in this life?! I just wish that the world was a safe place, and that I didn’t have to worry about what I might hear when I turn on the news.

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This and That

Quiet day today. I’m glad to be back home. I love my parents, but it is nice to be back in one’s own space, you know? I got caught up on the cleaning, clothes washing, etc. this afternoon and then enjoyed a nice nap. I have the worst time sleeping someplace other then my own bed, so I had built up a nice sleep debt by being away.

This morning I spent an hour or so planting another indoor garden and listening to classical music. The container garden I had at our last place eventually got over run by spider mites (which came in one free mini roses, so much for free stuff!), so it didn’t get moved. This time I was more careful when I chose my plants, making sure they all appeared healthy and bug free. It was such fun to get my hands dirty, and it was sort of healing in a way to. Being an apartment and city dweller, I don’t feel very connected to nature. When I do go for walks, I get so happy seeing the trees and the flowers. It is so nice to have a little bit of that indoors, and to actually play in the dirt!

Tomorrow, if the weather stays nice, I think I will go to the ROM again. It is getting to be an almost weekly pilgrimage for me. I’d sort of like to go to the Art Gallery of Ontario, but truthfully I’m not a big fan on most art. I like Pre-Raphaelites and that’s about it. I’m also not a fan of poetry or philosophy, but that is neither here nor there.

And, sadly, it looks like I’m not getting those pieces for my altar. My last two emails to the shop have gone unanswered, and my package has not arrived. I will try to contact them a few more times, giving them the benefit of a doubt, but it looks like I may have to try and get my money back through VISA. *sigh* I was so excited.

I’m rambling today. Sorry about that. I think it is because I have a few ideas floating around, but none are yet coherent enough to share.

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