It seems a little bit like the House of Crushed Dreams around here lately. quanta was laid off a little over two and a half weeks ago. He got a fabulous severance package, so we are just fine money-wise. His job search isn’t going really well though, or maybe it would be better to say that things aren’t proceeding as quickly as he would like. Honestly, he is bored out of his mind.

As for me, I think I am going to gracefully withdraw from NaNoWriMo. I am not the least bit inspired. I started writing the story that I had laid out a plot for and hit about 2,000 words before I became disenchanted with it. So, I switched plots and made it to 7,000 words. Now I have run that plot into the ground. I feel very disappointed, and rather discouraged. But, I will participate again next year, taking more time creating my characters and plot outline before NaNoWriMo begins. Also, I think my talent is moving more towards non-fiction writing, which I am more then happy with.

My lovely desktop computer, the aptly named Serenity, is back up and running. I’m not sure what I did, other then call it a couple of names, wiggle a couple of cords, and move the RAM chip into another slot. Based on this “solution” and previous problems with the IDE channels, we are pretty sure that there is some sort of problem with the motherboard. quanta contacted the nice people at Asus on Friday (before I got Serenity running again), but we haven’t heard back from them.

It is odd how this whole experience affected me. I really felt lost, adrift without my oar sort of thing. It’s not like I was without a computer. I still had my notebook, Thaleia, and quanta’s computer, Elysium. Heck, I went a whole 24 hours in the summer without electricity, and I was fine. I think the problem was that I wasn’t able to have something I wanted. I don’t seem to deal well with being denied.

Well, I suppose I should tidy up my computer cables and put that screw back in that was holding my hard drive in place. I’m so worried about turning the computer off again, or loading up the dreaded Sims (which I was attempting to play when Serenity died). No point in babying the old girl though. Our relationship isn’t like that. She abuses me and I abuse her. 🙂

Today has been a good day and a bad day. I was finally able to get a good night sleep last night, although quanta’s cell phone did wake me up at 6 am with it’s low battery warning. Instead of lying in bed and staring at the ceiling, I got up to work on my NaNoWriMo novel. I really had no idea what to write, since I pretty much had writer’s block. Not nice at all. Well, I decided to change the whole focus of my novel, and I managed to get quite a bit written today. I’m much happier with this new direction too.

On the bad news front, it looks like my desktop computer has decided it doesn’t like me right now. It froze while loading a game, and now it won’t even boot. A few quick attempts at troubleshooting haven’t resolved the problems. quanta has offered a few other suggestions, which I will try tomorrow when I am a little less annoyed.